Current mood: Feeling down and low.

Lonely as well. Because the bf is in Taiwan enjoying and partying without me. So much for a bf huh?

Anyways this is my fight. Remember I said I wanted to prove something. So yup, this is my fight. I have pride, and somehow deep down inside me, I don't want his support. I want to prove I can do it.

Just 1 month, and I can barely stand staying at home, and the fact I am BROKE.

All I can think of is the holiday that I wanted. A holiday that I earned it, deserved it, I can pay for by myself. A holiday with my gfs, parents, friends.

Depression sinking in.

Desperation as well.

Am I over qualified now!?

I thought by studying hard, getting distinctions it would make a difference to the past.

I wonder does it.

Or am I applying for the wrong type of jobs?

Every day I hope my phone would ring, I get really excited when I see an unfamiliar number, I see that glimpse of hope of a job interview.

Give me a chance to talk to you, to show you what I am worth. How much can I contribute to your company, to society, to this world.

I pray that everyday would be a better day.

May this emo feeling go away.

Perhaps partying can help drown my emo feelings away. hurhurhur.

Nights all.

Do hope your days are better than mine.