The next phase of my life.

Growing up is a process we cannot run away from. From kindergarten to primary school to secondary school to junior college/polytechnic to university and then finally you are on your own. Working life.

I have come to the end of the dependent lifestyle phase. The time when I just stretch out my hands and give the sweetest smile to my parents saying " daddy/mommy, can I have some money please?" Showered with tender love and care. I thank God for all of them. I thank God for having supportive parents and my dad being able to support my dreams to study Biomedical Engineering (:

So now I am moving on to the next phase of life, independent-hood. It's the start and it will last a while. I am no longer a child. But it is normal to have child-like behaviors; anxiety, anxiousness, excitement and curiosity. Thoughts of am I up to the job? How would my new peers be like? Would they be friendly? Scary? All these small minor things are running through my mind. I am like a child, dreading to go to school, dreading the first day of school.

But I am thankful that I managed to secure a job these soon, Thank God. The sooner, the better, I can pay back my parents earlier too. And my dad need not worry too much too, especially that we have to support my sister's dreams. :D

I have been thinking about it, to pursue a Medical Degree in the future. I'm such a late bloomer, but better to bloom than not to bloom right? Well we will see about that in the future. ;)

There is something which left me scarred. My low esteem when ever I think about my first degree. How terrible it was. But yet I am so thankful for the opportunity to do my masters and prove to myself I am not that stupid after all. :D

My life has been a roller coaster, the ups and downs in my studies, but I have come to realize something, do not listen to what others have to say, follow your dreams and your niche. Do not have too much pride and be afraid of failing or quitting. I salute my sister. She quit NUS to go to IMU which is in KL, Malaysia so that she can fulfill her Doctor dreams. I was a coward, I did not want to quit NTU because I feel that I would be a quitter. Pride. The cost of pride? 4 years wasted in NTU. Quit early before it's too late, if you need to of cause. ;) Well this may not be the best advice, but that's my honest opinion. To study something you are good at and you like it and want to work in that line. Because what you are going to work at is for the next 30 yrs of your life. Even if you are not intending to work in that line, maybe let say you studied Engineering but you want to be a banker, why would you want to torture yourself to study something you have so much difficulty swallowing and digesting it? Study something you like, enjoy your 4 years of university life! Choose your destiny, don't let others choose it for you. (:

So cheers to me getting a job! (:

May I be a blessing to my future peers and for my work.

Thank God

God bless everyone and have a good weekend.

xoxo

Steph